Just breathe...

I'm kind of mad at my life right now. I feel like nothing is right. I know that's hardly the case, but I still feel it. I know all of these things, and I still feel so, well... uninformed, I guess. My mind is so off kilter lately, and I'm not a big fan of that feeling. First off, I'm lonely, and this never produces a happy feeling. I know that I kinda skipped the whole being single stage, but I don't like it. I wouldn't have liked it at 17 either. It feels like, at 20, everyone is finding that person. You know what I mean? Not neccesarily to marry them now, but to cultivate something and let it go in that direction. It's tough to see people who are so happy and comfortable. I mean, I'm happy that so many of my friends have someone like that, I know the feeling and it's great. But knowing the feeling and not actually feeling it makes it so much harder to function. Maybe I hold onto things, but this is one thing I just can't forget. My life is just not were I want it to be. I'm sure this is a passing phase, but it's awfully stinky!

Um, I'm sick too, which is also stinky. I'm afraid that I'm getting mono, which would be contracted from Shawnie Koch. I slept all day today, no joke. I went to bed at like, 2 am, and woke up at noon to go downstairs and fall asleep in our big chair with my cat.

Bible study was kinda stupid last night. I didn't enjoy it at all, except for every single thing that Dave and Twig said. And on that note, this is the end of my blog.


P.S. I feel the need to reconnect with people from my past. This includes Matt DiGesare. There ya go! ;)