Mmmm, dubious!

So, it's been awhile since I last updated... Nothing much has happened, such is my life (or lack thereof).

Let's see, I've got a ton of work to do for school so that I actually pass all my classes this semester and get back into Plattsburgh. I should probably be doing that instead of updating, but I do enjoy me some procrastination! I've got 4 papers to write, a math final to study for, and an oral presentation to prepare for. All of these papers require sources from other school libraries and whatnot. This makes it hard to slack off and do it at the last minute, which is my normal modus operandi. Then again, last time I tried to do that, I got a D on my British Literature paper. Nice, I know.

So, today, my plan of action is to re-write my Abnormal Psych paper with a new source (due Friday), to at least start on my paper on the Victorian Era for British Literature, then to do some laundry, to clean my room and my car because they've both reached vomitrocious levels of grossness, and then to start preparing for my British Lit. final project. I have so much work to do and it's really intimidating because I've slacked this semester; so much more that I have in ANY OTHER SEMESTER! I have no idea how I managed it, but I think Math is the only class I'm going to do pretty well in! I know, the irony!

I just don't have the energy to do anything. I want to get the framp out of SCCC and move on with my life, but at the same time, I'm so terrified of leaving. I'm terrified of going back to Plattsburgh. I went for a visit this weekend and spent time with Cojack, which was awesome, don't get me wrong... but there's still something about being away from my support system that frightens me to the point of paralyzation. I'm trying to get a single room so I don't have to deal with another roommate, because I think we all know how that last one worked out... but I'm nervous that by doing so, I'll be cutting myself off from a chance to meet more people. I don't know. I met a couple girls when I went for my visit, Darcy and Katie, and they were wicked cool. Especially Katie, I think we'll get along really well when I go back. Darcy was really funny and she's crazy, so that's a good match right there!

I don't know, I'm insecure. This applies to more than just school. I feel so retarded, for lack of a better word. There's this one guy who makes me all stupid and he has no idea, and I have no idea how I'm supposed to tell him. I'm driving myself crazy with all this worrying and obsessing. I'll probably get the ulcer that I've been tempting for 2 years now, what with all this nonsense going on!

Anyway, school's out in 12 days, then I have finals, and then I go on vacation with Leigh to Rhode Island for 4 glorious nights AND I CANNOT WAIT!

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